Positives:

Fireplace to enjoy
Swimming pool to swim in
Intelligence that you have
Caring nature
Guts to make you take risks
Perseverance to have you follow through

Those are just the beginning. You can be more. Do more. Live. Enjoy life.
Have the ability to love.

It's far from over. I want to read a follow up at some point with all the home improvements you've initiated.

Your worth is not based on a MAN. Or a relationship. It's you. How you love yourself.

I'm rooting for you, Ms. PD Reader. And by the way, I am sexy and damn desirable as a "larger" Lady. Fuck the scale. Get your groove back. Believe in your own desirability. If Lizzo can do it, so can you.